Depression is a hard monster to keep under control.
Some of us need antidepressants, some of us need 24/7 watch, and some of us need daily routines to help keep the monster in check. I’ve tried all three, and having a daily routine is what works best for me.
My mind needs yoga, meditation, whole and healthy foods, and good conversation in my relationship. My soul needs nature, needs the outdoors. I also desperately need alone time to read a book, listen to music, or to simply sit with myself and be aware of my emotions.
The past couple of weeks have been tough. I have not posted here since May 9, but I can’t apologize for that. Things and life happen, and that’s just it. I promised myself that this blog would be for me to put my thoughts into words with the hope that some of you could relate, not to build a following and get paid to review products (not that there is anything wrong with that… If I had the willpower, I would totally be doing that too!).
If you’ve ever
suffered been a hero of depression, you’ll know what I mean when I say that your whole world feels like it’s crashing in, and that it’s all your fault. “He/she is so frustrated with me… What did I do/say?” We have to remember that we did nothing. Our monster is with us all the time, but our monster can be a friendly guy too.
When one aspect of my life seems to be going out of control, every other aspect starts to as well. Balance has never been so important to me as it is right now. Yoga was put on the back burner these past two weeks, and it has showed in every way it possibly could. My healthy eating habits are off, I can hardly get out of bed in the morning, my desire to go outside is gone, I don’t want to go into work, and my relationship has certainly been better. After one (very tough, very emotional) yoga practice this morning, I can already feel myself wanting to be balanced again throughout the rest of my life. So, a call to my favourite healer, Lesley Rumsey, was made and we’ll be doing some healing together next week ❤
It’s hard to feel like you’re completely out of place in this world, but we have to remember that we are here for a reason. Though we may feel alone sometimes, that is okay, and we always have somewhere to turn.
If you even remotely have some of the same feelings as I do, and feel like you have no one to talk to… Please reach out to me. I promise I can relate, and I promise I can listen.